What up?
Well I have A LOT on my mind. The past couple of days have been really productive music wise but, it feels weird cause everything I am doing now feels so adult. Honestly, I'm glad I noticed that I don't want to be the kid who sits at home on weekends and plays video games all the time. But, at the same time it feels weird to be growing into the person that I want to be in this world. Like knowing that Jake (my signee) might get signed to Universal Republic Records/Young Money Entertainment and me leading the way since I've been his manager/mentor for the past 4 months it's already great progress for a 14 year old.
Socially my world has been up and down like one of those heartbeat sensor thingy. One day at school I'll feel like everyone knows me as a person who is a cool guy just like them, and the next day I'll feel invisible with people looking at me in weird ways all because they made their first impression of me before I even met them. Most of the time I'll shake it off but it's still rotating in my queue of thoughts everyday when I pass the one's that judge me in the halls.
Right now currently though life just feels mediocre, not anything to get to excited about, I just feel like me, and my social life and friend expansion is straining to expand at this point cause we ARE more than halfway through the year so everyone already feels like they know who they should know and that's it. Left out? Maybe.
I am happy for one thing though. I met this girl named Tsiann I knew from waaay back in pre-school and we were like best friends and I really wanted (notice the past tense) until after a while she stopped responding to the messages on Facebook. Maybe I talked to much. But, who's knows... as Jay-Z says, "Got to learn to live with regrets."
